College, Illness, and Homework oh my!

So its been a long time since i wrote anythnig and now is as good a time as any.

the week started off with me having a near nervous breakdown on monday. I was nausious and dizzy, and I had a headache among other things. why was i nervous because i started college this week.

It was not until i went tot take a shower that i broke down crying my eyes for God to help me out. Right after i get out of the sower i felt like a million bucks. Praise the lord that all i can say.

So tuesday arrives i feel good and i start school. i get my backpack filled with my lunch and the needed materials. the whole day was rather easy i just sat in class and listened to the syllabus be explained.

wednesday arrives i get sick oh happy day thats just what i needed the week of school. I put up with it anyways and doo all my homework for thursday.

thursday arrives i'm still sick great just what i need a runny nose in class and only a few tissues to get me through the day. despite all this things go great. in my english class apparently i was the only smart one and baught my school books for english class. so everybody except me got dedducted points i on the other hand got extra credit.

Oh yeah i could tell everyone hated me.

speech class i had to listen to malcolm x and in government i was taught the roots of our government system. perhaps i'll learn why everything TAKES SO LONG!.

in any case school is going good i like my teachers and i learned to loathe unlotioned tissues!. heres hoping next week i'm healthy.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

So my family has come to visit this whole week my brother from another state. (forgot how to spell it so i wont bother.) my grandmother and aunt libby are here as well. things have been quite busy since they've arrived and i'm lucky i have this time to write at all. I quite enjoy them being here its just tiresome. But anyways just thought i'd share a quick random fact about myself.

I am incredibly impatient. When i put my mind to something that I want or want to do i get anxious and want to get it done right away it could be a toothbrush anything. Its not a good thing and lord willing i'll grow out of it.

Trust me

Trust is the biggest part of being a Christian its also one of the hardest.

Speaking for myself included why is it so hard for believers or all denominations to trust God unconditionally. I tend to think its because we cant see what God is doing in the background of our own lives. we sometimes see it in others and (speaking for myself) get jealous. We ask why doesn't God provide for me? or why doesn't God do something. or in some cases blame our selfs and degrade our selfs. I always found it interesting that Muslims and Buddhists most of the time will trust their fake God and yet we cant trust the one true God.

We may at first trust God saying "he'll come through for us." but when really bad things tend to happen we forget our trust completely and panic. Something i'm guilty of almost all the time (Lord help me to trust you!) i sometimes shout that in my head in a vain hope that he'll poof in front of me and say "Aaron i'm here, i'll take care of you don't worry."

It may not verbally happen but we know in the back of our head and in the bible that he will.

Just thought i'd share hope you guys get encouraged by this. all trust, faith, and glory belongs to God.