The feeling of defeat and narrative essay final draft

Have you ever had a week of battles that you were losing and the first day of the next week begins you know that day is gonna have a big battle. you tell yourself this week is going to be good i can win this... instead theirs defeat and you have that feeling going into the next day. Just defeat how is the week gonna be know that you've lost. last week i didn't read my bible very much it was filled with problems. yesterday felt like a breaking point not too sure what that means yet...

all thats left right now is defeat. in any case heres the final draft of my essay any advice you one random reader from new Zealand have for me please share.

A history of writing

I remembered typing in the final sentence of my latest story onto my computer. I felt a sense of accomplishment. As I sat on my bedroom chair and listened to the sound of the printer shoot out pages of my story. I thought about how I came to this place in my writing career.

Fanfiction.net was a site I had been introduced to by my older sister, it inspired me to write my very first story which was, of course, a fan fiction and written in script form. It was based on an animated series which was quite popular at the time. It is always an interesting thing to look back at ones original story because it tends to be the worst which was true in my case.

I posted my story on the website but never received any feed back never the less I continued on this cycle for several years. Each story had a different plot but were poorly written. It was not until I reached a roadblock that I stopped writing. I ran out of ideas, or so I thought. I did not know that I was trapped within the confined spaces of my own lack of skill and/or knowledge. I started to regret the idea of writing. I wanted to retire from writing at the age of thirteen.

All seemed hopeless for my so-called writing career till I met a man named Troy Fuller. In the middle of one of our many conversations he told me about his own stories, which he wrote. He told me about one that he had written over the course of ten years but did not finish. In my young mind I could not even fathom the idea of working on a story for so long. Troy asked me if I had ever written any stories of my own. I told him that I did and he asked me to bring him one.

In my mind, when I delivered the story, it was a masterpiece that should be published even though it was only fan-fiction. I was shocked, to say the least, when I received my first harsh criticism. It went without saying that, even though he was right on every level, I was insulted. It was that very reason why I started to write again. The problem persisted that I still did not know what to write about. When I told Troy about this he suggested that I read a book. To me, the idea of reading a book irritated me to no end. More than anything though, I wanted to be a better writer. If reading a book meant that it would help me, then I was willing to do so. The first book I would read was a Star Wars book which, at the time, I was quite into. I could not recall the exact name of the book, but I could tell you that it inspired me to write my first semi-original story on the computer. When I started to write on the computer I ran into another problem. I did not know how to type or what design that should be used.

For my first typed story, I would once again use a script format that I modified to be closer to the proper format or, at least, to what I believed to be the proper format. It took me about 5 months to write out a few chapters of my first action story. I delivered it to my friend Troy, who told me it was good, but then proceeded to point out all the flaws. His criticism did not discourage. Instead it encouraged me to go and read some more books in order to get better.

During my second attempt to become a better writer, I came across Edgar Allen Poe and his dramatic form of writing. It opened my eyes to a new genre and a plethora of ideas which I just had to write down. The next story I gave Troy was completely original and received less criticism than my last story. He encouraged me to read The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck, followed by The Jungle by Upton Sinclair, Dante's Divine Comedy and various other writers who opened my eyes to the different forms of dramatic writing that can be done.

It would take several years before I could increase my skill when it came to design. When I turned in my latest story it was in the proper format most writers use. Even though I still receive criticism, I have found that over the years, I had become my worst critic. I will now throw away complete stories if I find too many problems with the characters and continuity of the story.

Therefore I sat on my desk chair and remembered the long and tiresome road I had to take to get to where I am today. Once the printer finished, I picked up my story and started to read through it. I realized what I once thought was good, was not very so good. So I threw out the entire story and looked at my computer screen. I skimmed through the pages to see if I could fix the problem. I instead ended up running into more issues. I realized that I still have much to learn, but hoped that one day my writing experiences could be used as inspiration for other young writers, like myself to keep on going.